Monday, November 26, 2007
My confusion, I don't even know where to start this blog. What's in here may piss people off, but that is NOT my intention. Then again, I don't even know if those people care enough anymore to read this.
Apparently I "changed" when I came home from Vernon this summer. I was more outspoken, but I didn't really change. What happened was I came from a place that kept me busy 24-7 and was constantly surrounded by people (even in my own room, I could still here everyone around me) to a place where I had nothing to do and no one to talk to. This change in surroundings happened within a couple hours so it was sudden. I'm not sure how I said things, but people seemed to take offence to what I did say.
I mentioned in a previous post that being a housewife was driving me nuts, and someone thought that I was insulting her chosen profession. That was by far not the truth. I greatly admire this woman and what she does for her family. She is a housewife and a damn good one! What I was trying to say is that it wasn't for me. One thing I wanted most this summer was to share with all my friends at home the experiences that I had this summer (just as they like to share all the experiences they have) and tell them about all the people I met from all over the world! Someone else took this to mean that my old friends had been replaced.
Because of all this I went into a very dark place, which started with having nothing to do and got progressively worse. I told John I wanted out and the only thing that stopped me from saying divorce was that John had interrupted me (once again). I put him through hell and he needed people to talk to so he talked to our friends, which eliminated them from the list of people I could talk to for two reasons. 1. Because some of them were the ones who took offence to what I'd said and 2. because, in my mind, that was putting them in the middle of something and may force them to choose between the two of us. Which I thought would be unfair (please keep in mind that I'm not saying what I though was rational - most of the time it wasn't). Once John figured out what was really happening with me, he became my light. But by then the damage was done. The only real saving graces I had through this incredibly scary time are John who was/is very patient, cadets (and the officers) who provided me with support and structure, and one man who I worked with this summer but didn't become friends with until weeks after. He never let me give up on myself or my marriage, and he didn't even know what was going on. Everyone else seemed to disappear.
I don't know how to make them re-appear. I was told by a long time friend that I'm missed and that my friends want to mend the rift. I also want to fix my mistakes before two of them leave but no one returns my calls. Hence my confusion. Someone please tell me what I need to do.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 11:09 PM,
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My Summer
Friday, September 07, 2007
I'm sure that everyone has heard that John and I are having a few problems. It's been very difficult for me to come home. I hate being a housewife with nothing to do but laundry, dishes and making my man food. Some thing I realized over the summer, is everything I'm missing by being married to a man that has no ambition to do anything other then come home and spend time on the computer. I miss going out and doing new things with him. I'll give him credit right now though, he is trying to be more active.
And I'm also sure everyone has heard by now, I had a fantastic summer. I did a lot of hard word but made some great friends. There are two things that I really want to have happen. 1) When I get promoted next, I want my dad to present it to me. It only has to be a commissioned officer to do it and does not have to be the CO from my LHq (Local Headquarters) and 2) When I get my commissioning scroll I'd LOVE for it to be presented to me in the officer's mess at Vernon next summer. Getting it a all will be cool, but the cadets won't understand the significance of it. However in Vernon I'd be surrounded by friends and officers who do understand, so it's a much bigger deal there. This year the presentations were done right before our Officer's Dinning in, which meant that we were all dressed in our formal attire in a formal setting, and no cadets allowed. However if it's done here, I'll be in my combats and it'll be tacked on to the beginning or end of a work night.
Anyway, that's my rant for now. TTYAL.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:53 PM,
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I'm with the band
Monday, August 13, 2007
On a bit of a dare form the commanding officer from my home unit, I wore this shirt. Not only did I not get harassed for it (like I was promissed would happen), but the deputy commanding officer of the battalion here loved it so much he had to get a picture! So here's the proof.
BTW; yes these are members of my band.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:01 AM,
,
Rumors
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I only have a few moments, but I wanted to make a general announcment. John informed me about some rumors about him and a friend. Then he told me what really happened that night. I have spoken to the other friend involved and I'm ok with everything. I love my husband and I trust him and my friend.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:36 PM,
,
Vernon ACSTC 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
To show you where I've been these 2 last weeks.
http://www.armycadethistory.com/vernon_acstc_main.htm
http://www.armycadethistory.com/Vernon%20photo%20gallery/VACSTC_2007_Daily/2007_daily_camp_stories.htm
There are LOTS of photos, but only three of me. I hope everyone is having as great a time as I am! I'm hot, dirty and sweaty and that's the moment I walk out of the shower. As gross as it is, it's astronimically rewarding and I'm already thinking about coming back next summer! Next time I won't break my cell phone though! I'll be more careful.
I'll try to update as best I can. See you all when I get home.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:48 PM,
,
Summer Job
Sunday, June 24, 2007
As everyone should know by now, I'll be heading to Vernon for the Army Cadet Summer camp for 7ish weeks. I leave on Wednesday, though I don't have a time. I should be returning August 19 (happy bday Liam). I'm going to miss everyone, but I'm going to have a great time, too. I have an uber cell phone plan, so please feel free to call. I'll have to change the number while I'm there, so I'll let everyone know what it is when I get it.
Have a great summer everyone!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:02 AM,
,
Frogs
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,
Friday, September 07, 2007
I'm sure that everyone has heard that John and I are having a few problems. It's been very difficult for me to come home. I hate being a housewife with nothing to do but laundry, dishes and making my man food. Some thing I realized over the summer, is everything I'm missing by being married to a man that has no ambition to do anything other then come home and spend time on the computer. I miss going out and doing new things with him. I'll give him credit right now though, he is trying to be more active.
And I'm also sure everyone has heard by now, I had a fantastic summer. I did a lot of hard word but made some great friends. There are two things that I really want to have happen. 1) When I get promoted next, I want my dad to present it to me. It only has to be a commissioned officer to do it and does not have to be the CO from my LHq (Local Headquarters) and 2) When I get my commissioning scroll I'd LOVE for it to be presented to me in the officer's mess at Vernon next summer. Getting it a all will be cool, but the cadets won't understand the significance of it. However in Vernon I'd be surrounded by friends and officers who do understand, so it's a much bigger deal there. This year the presentations were done right before our Officer's Dinning in, which meant that we were all dressed in our formal attire in a formal setting, and no cadets allowed. However if it's done here, I'll be in my combats and it'll be tacked on to the beginning or end of a work night.
Anyway, that's my rant for now. TTYAL.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:53 PM,
,
I'm with the band
Monday, August 13, 2007
On a bit of a dare form the commanding officer from my home unit, I wore this shirt. Not only did I not get harassed for it (like I was promissed would happen), but the deputy commanding officer of the battalion here loved it so much he had to get a picture! So here's the proof.
BTW; yes these are members of my band.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:01 AM,
,
Rumors
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I only have a few moments, but I wanted to make a general announcment. John informed me about some rumors about him and a friend. Then he told me what really happened that night. I have spoken to the other friend involved and I'm ok with everything. I love my husband and I trust him and my friend.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:36 PM,
,
Vernon ACSTC 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
To show you where I've been these 2 last weeks.
http://www.armycadethistory.com/vernon_acstc_main.htm
http://www.armycadethistory.com/Vernon%20photo%20gallery/VACSTC_2007_Daily/2007_daily_camp_stories.htm
There are LOTS of photos, but only three of me. I hope everyone is having as great a time as I am! I'm hot, dirty and sweaty and that's the moment I walk out of the shower. As gross as it is, it's astronimically rewarding and I'm already thinking about coming back next summer! Next time I won't break my cell phone though! I'll be more careful.
I'll try to update as best I can. See you all when I get home.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:48 PM,
,
Summer Job
Sunday, June 24, 2007
As everyone should know by now, I'll be heading to Vernon for the Army Cadet Summer camp for 7ish weeks. I leave on Wednesday, though I don't have a time. I should be returning August 19 (happy bday Liam). I'm going to miss everyone, but I'm going to have a great time, too. I have an uber cell phone plan, so please feel free to call. I'll have to change the number while I'm there, so I'll let everyone know what it is when I get it.
Have a great summer everyone!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:02 AM,
,
Frogs
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,
Monday, August 13, 2007
On a bit of a dare form the commanding officer from my home unit, I wore this shirt. Not only did I not get harassed for it (like I was promissed would happen), but the deputy commanding officer of the battalion here loved it so much he had to get a picture! So here's the proof.
BTW; yes these are members of my band.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:01 AM,
,
Rumors
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I only have a few moments, but I wanted to make a general announcment. John informed me about some rumors about him and a friend. Then he told me what really happened that night. I have spoken to the other friend involved and I'm ok with everything. I love my husband and I trust him and my friend.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:36 PM,
,
Vernon ACSTC 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
To show you where I've been these 2 last weeks.
http://www.armycadethistory.com/vernon_acstc_main.htm
http://www.armycadethistory.com/Vernon%20photo%20gallery/VACSTC_2007_Daily/2007_daily_camp_stories.htm
There are LOTS of photos, but only three of me. I hope everyone is having as great a time as I am! I'm hot, dirty and sweaty and that's the moment I walk out of the shower. As gross as it is, it's astronimically rewarding and I'm already thinking about coming back next summer! Next time I won't break my cell phone though! I'll be more careful.
I'll try to update as best I can. See you all when I get home.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:48 PM,
,
Summer Job
Sunday, June 24, 2007
As everyone should know by now, I'll be heading to Vernon for the Army Cadet Summer camp for 7ish weeks. I leave on Wednesday, though I don't have a time. I should be returning August 19 (happy bday Liam). I'm going to miss everyone, but I'm going to have a great time, too. I have an uber cell phone plan, so please feel free to call. I'll have to change the number while I'm there, so I'll let everyone know what it is when I get it.
Have a great summer everyone!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:02 AM,
,
Frogs
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I only have a few moments, but I wanted to make a general announcment. John informed me about some rumors about him and a friend. Then he told me what really happened that night. I have spoken to the other friend involved and I'm ok with everything. I love my husband and I trust him and my friend.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:36 PM,
,
Vernon ACSTC 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
To show you where I've been these 2 last weeks.
http://www.armycadethistory.com/vernon_acstc_main.htm
http://www.armycadethistory.com/Vernon%20photo%20gallery/VACSTC_2007_Daily/2007_daily_camp_stories.htm
There are LOTS of photos, but only three of me. I hope everyone is having as great a time as I am! I'm hot, dirty and sweaty and that's the moment I walk out of the shower. As gross as it is, it's astronimically rewarding and I'm already thinking about coming back next summer! Next time I won't break my cell phone though! I'll be more careful.
I'll try to update as best I can. See you all when I get home.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:48 PM,
,
Summer Job
Sunday, June 24, 2007
As everyone should know by now, I'll be heading to Vernon for the Army Cadet Summer camp for 7ish weeks. I leave on Wednesday, though I don't have a time. I should be returning August 19 (happy bday Liam). I'm going to miss everyone, but I'm going to have a great time, too. I have an uber cell phone plan, so please feel free to call. I'll have to change the number while I'm there, so I'll let everyone know what it is when I get it.
Have a great summer everyone!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:02 AM,
,
Frogs
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,
Friday, July 06, 2007
To show you where I've been these 2 last weeks.
http://www.armycadethistory.com/vernon_acstc_main.htm
http://www.armycadethistory.com/Vernon%20photo%20gallery/VACSTC_2007_Daily/2007_daily_camp_stories.htm
There are LOTS of photos, but only three of me. I hope everyone is having as great a time as I am! I'm hot, dirty and sweaty and that's the moment I walk out of the shower. As gross as it is, it's astronimically rewarding and I'm already thinking about coming back next summer! Next time I won't break my cell phone though! I'll be more careful.
I'll try to update as best I can. See you all when I get home.
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 8:48 PM,
,
Summer Job
Sunday, June 24, 2007
As everyone should know by now, I'll be heading to Vernon for the Army Cadet Summer camp for 7ish weeks. I leave on Wednesday, though I don't have a time. I should be returning August 19 (happy bday Liam). I'm going to miss everyone, but I'm going to have a great time, too. I have an uber cell phone plan, so please feel free to call. I'll have to change the number while I'm there, so I'll let everyone know what it is when I get it.
Have a great summer everyone!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:02 AM,
,
Frogs
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,
Sunday, June 24, 2007
As everyone should know by now, I'll be heading to Vernon for the Army Cadet Summer camp for 7ish weeks. I leave on Wednesday, though I don't have a time. I should be returning August 19 (happy bday Liam). I'm going to miss everyone, but I'm going to have a great time, too. I have an uber cell phone plan, so please feel free to call. I'll have to change the number while I'm there, so I'll let everyone know what it is when I get it.
Have a great summer everyone!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 1:02 AM,
,
Frogs
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Ahh, the frogs (or in this case...crickets). Brings back warm fuzzy memories of sleeping on the ground, under a dark green stinky hooch. The trees swaying above us, the feel of the ocean in the air and meter upon meter of paracord! Meals packaged a few years ago and arctic games!
posted by Turnoc's Lady @ 10:52 PM,
,